What The Fuck Is Happening

I feel like everyday as of lately I find myself asking "What the fuck is going on right now?"

It feels as if the world is in a constant state of chaos & I simply cannot keep up.

Growing up I'd always hear adults saying "if it ain't one thing, it's another." & I swear that shit has felt so true these days. It's like you jump over one hurdle & start to catch your breath but then here comes 5 more lining up.

When does it end?

Is there a break?

Cause I really feel like life is constantly telling me Come Outside We Not Gone Jump You.

You can't even turn to family & friends to vent anymore cause they out here getting their asses handled too. So what do you do? How do you cope?

I'm a virgo, so when life gets to be too much you'll most likely find me in the corner making a list, creating a plan , & jumping into full blown fix it mode. Typically I thrive in chaos because that means there's space for me to create order. When life is giving you lemons you really do have to take them & make a lemon drop out of it. I'm learning that in those moments where it's hard to keep going, sometimes it's best to lean into your greatest qualities. You will always be your biggest supporter. You know what you're capable of even when it doesn't always feel like it. Trust in yourself always. And if you believe in a higher power like I do, trust that everything happens for a reason.

Somebody once told me that when you're always looking at what's wrong you forget to appreciate what's right.

That stuck with me.

I have to constantly remind myself that I used to pray to be where I'm at & even with the bullshit, life is still great. More & more I'm starting to realize that if life was easy it wouldn't be as rewarding. Accomplishing something wouldn't be as exciting if there weren't hurdles in the way. So this is me trying to appreciate those hurdles. Everything we go through pushes us to be a better version of ourself. There's always a lesson to be learned or even a lesson for us to teach. So in those moments where you find yourself asking "What the fuck is happening?" take a moment, take a breath, & make lemon drops out of those lemons!